fuck yeah fest was honestly kind of disappointing. i feel sorry for people who actually paid $20-24 to get in.
First of all, parking was ridiculous. THEN we had to wait over 2 hours in a fucking line to get the tickets we have already paid for. WHILE waiting in line i got to hear the one band i really wanted to see. NO BUNNY'S set was over before we even got our tickets. everyone was hungry, so we didn't even go inside. but there really wasn't anyone i wanted to see at that time. saw carbonas play and enjoyedd it. left my brother and his friends during this set. saw some of mika mikos set, got annoyed and left. got pretty close for japanther. COMPLETE DISAPPOINTMENT. i thought it would have been much more fun. I stayed there while lightning bolt was setting up. dustin and peter joined me. it was getting to crowded so i decided to go sit under the trees with lynn and joy. we spent the rest of the night sitting as far away from the stage as possible. saw fucked up and torche. then made our way to see cold cave and walked back to see converge.

lynn lost her bag.
walking back to my brothers car we saw that it had been broken into. glass was shattered on the seats.

i hate big crowds. i hate big stages. why couldn't it be like the first fuck yeah fest i went to, where everyone squeezed into tiny lofts or venues to watch the bands play.

never again....maybe. ha

well, get me one from there too!
i dont mind them older boys
i actually prefer them !
hahah

10:50pm:::
yeah..in hopes that they're mature
ughhh im still mad at my ex...

10:50pmDaisy
which??? why??

10:51pm:::
my most recent one. cuz hes an ass. i found out alot of info he didnt tell me and it hurts and pisses me off at the same time

10:51pmDaisy
ugggh stupid boys man!
BOYS
men are better

10:53pm:::
haha i know. i thought my ex was mature but isnt. i was talking to my cousin and she was like none of the cousins like him cuz he kept you from us
and he was completely different from your other boyfriends
so...
my ex basically cheated on me. ill leave it at that

10:53pmDaisy
=o
that shit head!

10:54pm:::
yeah i know.
i found out from his friends fiance
i was completely heartbroken

10:54pmDaisy
that's so demeaning.
and wrong.
i dont understand why guys do that?
like really? what's the point?
it's not getting you ANYWHERE
makes you look like a complete ASS
just ridiculous

10:55pm:::
i know. thats what i said.
then he started rubbing it in my face and told me to go fuck myself cuz he got a date with his future girlfriend.
so i started belitting him lol

10:56pmDaisy
good job :::!

10:56pm:::
he dropped out of college and he isnt smart lol he thinks you can ride a seahorse lol
im not that mean but he hurt me

10:56pmDaisy
and he definitely deserved that
and more
karmas a bitch

10:58pmDaisy
just think, you got one idiot out of the way. which means your one step closer to finding your soul mate.
no longer wasting your time with someone who doesnt deserve it in the first place

10:59pm:::
i know...trust me...i was hurt..still am but in time things will turn around for me. his friend sent me a message asking me if id take him back and i said fuck no he lied to me and i dont like liars. you can tell him that if he comes running back to me he better not expect anything cuz im not taking him back. then he told my ex haha

thats so true. he was a waste of my time. its sad that i wasted almost a year on him. i miss his mom and his puppies though :(:(

11:00pmDaisy
it's funny how some of the connections you miss most aren't really the person you dated, but the things that come along with it
like their family
haha

11:01pm:::
haha i know.
seriously

Math final
Music final
Play date at the park we built. yes, WE built a park.
FINALLY saw sabrina after i'd say about 100 years. hahhaha
and to top off the night, went to elliots house to see paul baribeau.

"im thinking maybe you have a superhero complex or something"
steph cracks me up. but, i won't argue with her. HAHAHAA

the dodger game yesterday was INTENSE. matt kemp was AMAZING.

bolsa chica tonight!

i just remembered about my psych project last year [summer @mt.sac] where i had people ANONYMOUSLY [wow i spelled that right on my first try] write what they think of me. hmmm just for fun, i'll post them here. i can only pinpoint...probably 2 people. idk who else wrote something. stephanie made it BEYOND OBVIOUS!

this was the prompt:
Make a list of all the things that you think describes me (e.g., characteristics, behaviors, attitudes). These things may include, first impressions, last impressions, or any inferences you may have made about me. Basically what you believe describes me. Please make a list, not paragraph format; no stories that will identify who you are. Please do not write your name anywhere on this document, it must be strictly anonymous. Please be TRULY HONEST, be sure to include ALL the good, the bad, and the ugly. This is for an assignment concerning self-understanding, analysis, and assessment.

wonderful.
- sometimes shy
- open mind
- easy to talk to
- bubbly
- funny
- flirtatious
-dogmatic
- strong
-fun to be around
-procrastinator
- positive attitude

funny
easy going
fun
smart
well-liked
kind of quiet
hard working
adventurous

fun
easy to talk to
outgoing but shy at the same time
smart
loyal
strong values
nice
friendly
loves life

fun
lovable
random
artsy
misadventurous

friendly
approachable
positive
artistic

-Fun
-Random
-Friendly
-Sarcastic
-Shy
-Outspoken
-Funny
-Energetic
-Open Minded
-Optimistic

shy yet friendly
smiles
kind
good friend
laughing
inside jokes
paranoid
moody
distant
fickle
confused
troubled
misunderstood
self-conscious
fighter
non-confrontational
stubborn
headstrong
like her mother
supportive
headstrong

funny
friendly
outgoing
positive
real (not fake) <----lol

Loud
Artistic
Friendly
Helpful
Smart
Goofy
Thoughtful
Fun
Photogenic
Happy
Rude

shy at first
hilarious
opinionated
lovely smile/ almost always smiling
pretty loud
easy going
friendly

Energetic
Active
Responsable
Interesting
Compasionate
Nice
Sociable

welcoming
accepting
caring
respectable
inclusive
friendly

photographer
humorous
funny
caring
trustworthy
loyal
friendly

honest
undecisive
cheerful
blunt
unique
loud(good)
quirky

LMAO...here's stephs:
introverted
friend
will visit Ryan Taylor Bliss one day
concerned
owns a dog
accepting
always going to shows
wears converse
sneaky
Dresden Dolls!
was in yearbook
mature beyond necessary
sister
graduated from Bishop Amat '07
selfless
niphy (i prob just gave myself away lol)
has a mom, dad, brother
selfish
fan of Michaels Phelps' body lines
super funny
genuine
pretty
loves dancing (watching or doing)
short
could easily be a mother
listens to some weeeeeird music lol but catchy
curly haired
slightly confused
volunteers alot
giggly
extremely loyal
alot alot alot
fearless when the situation calls for it
catholic
loving
could fill in this blank...
goodness gracious great balls __ __ __________
not really that shy with strangers
mike
sn is chaoscollides
bilingual
19
creative
fan of bonfires
has tons of friends
photographer
driver
interested in alot of things
polaroid picture lover
brother in SLO

cute
in shape
caring
adventurous
free spirit

active
laughing
friendly
closed
energetic
candy

loving
giggles
cute
slightly timid
yet outspoken
loud
clean
giving
unique
good with children
accepting
good listener
good advice
music
dance

awesome
funny
random
trustworthy
loud
good listener
sweet
caring
honest
lovable
trust issues
unique
loves kids
loves music

-Loud infectious laughter
-At times possibly ridiculous
-Generally happy
-Smart but at times could act more like it
-Kind hearted
-Very funny
-Comes off as very artistic
-When happy, very happy... however if sad, very sad.
-Intense emotions... very overbearing at times
-Always tries to include everybody... but sometimes it is felt simply as pity rather than general concern
-Will always remember her

nice
funny
smart
giving
short temper
happy
welcoming

nice
caring
honest
bright
determined

oh maaan, thank you everyone who participated! although, i think these people were too nice.

helloooo livejournal!





i'm not sleepy.
=[


"you're a cute belly button!"

"man. i fucking love you guys. we should go party together. let's stay here until they kick us out. man, lets pee on the fire."

drunk people make me laugh.



&thanks to alvin for not letting me drink too much! but i was driving alone...so it wouldn't have mattered. there would have been nothing valuable in my car!

how do you tell your heart,
no, don't swell with magic, you'll only burst?
how do you tell it to clamp itself off from possibilities?
God knows i don't need more pain in life.
why did i invite it in? do i have to feel pain to believe i feel anything at all?

ellen hopkins

i don't know what i'm thinking.
i waited long enough to think it was okay to say hi AT LEAST.
and i received a reply, but...i kept getting one word answers.
i was trying to be the bigger person. trying to initiate a friendship. it's one that i never thought i would lose.

maybe i shouldn't have tried having a conversation.
maybe it was too early.
maybe he doesn't want to be my friend.
maybe it's hurting him more than it's hurting me.
maybe it's harder for him to talk to me.
maybe i should stop trying to be his friend.


he was such a good person to have around. he was always listening, and if he wasn't, he was good at pretending. he helped me through some rough times. his family included me in their activities.

i miss my comfort.
i miss my listener.
i miss my friend.

i'm not quite ready to just delve into my pocket and pull out all my emotions then type them out to share with everyone. i'm not looking for sympathy. i'm just hoping that this will be somewhat therapeutic for me. also, i apologize for pushing any of you out of my life. i let myself get caught up with things that were going on in my life. it swallowed me whole and kept me tied snugly by its side. i thought i was happy, but my thoughts are overwhelming me right now. i don't want to say i wasn't content but i'll never know unless i continue living my life. as i did once before, or better than that. i have my life figured out, i'm just waiting for everything to fall into place. trying to roll with the punches. everything that happens makes us stronger right? or maybe it'll eventually lead us to desperation.



& I don't wanna try so hard anymore,
I don't want a fucking lover who makes me feel like a failure.
It ain't about the saints that we should have been
What is done is done, I'm heartbroken,
& I'm dealing with it.



Say,
The only way I know to say I Love You anymore,
Is to let you go.



i am not healthy, i am not healthy, i am not healthy, i am not healthy
i've been sick for a while & nursing it
but once you've got the fear
there's no escaping it
it takes away your home
your hope
& your family



We've got pills to ease our pain
And we've got bodies to hush our loneliness
with enough of the two, I think we're gonna make it through all right



...ships go down & trains derail
tanks overturn & pilots bail
but if there's one thing that i've learned in all of this
it's that sometimes we sink, sometimes we sink before we sail

my days are getting brighter.


=]

my mom didn't tell me what the nurses said day of surgery "i don't think he's going to make it, so just prepare yourself"

i would have freaked if she had told me though....


surgery is done. he survived. and he can now be fed.


i want to adopt a dog. or pick one up off the streets.


i printed an 8x10 picture of my mom and dad for mothers day. i think she might cry. hahaha